Tuesday, June 16, 2015

I’m alive.

Hi. 

I won’t blame you if you’ve assumed I’m dead, hibernating or never coming back. After reading numerous posts on how to get back to your blog after taking a break I’ve decided that I’m not going to follow anything I’ve read. How can I just not talk about my absence from the blog and just avoid it like it should get a hint and run away? Not happening. 

I stopped blogging in October, and back then it wasn’t conscious decision. I didn’t just wake up and decide to stop blogging. It happened. Amidst the piles of work and sleepless nights, I stopped having the ability to process my thoughts here. I was still writing, for class, but I never figured out how to access this space again. For a while I just got caught up with assignments. But then, in the last month or so of being relatively free, it’s been hard to return here.  

I think I just felt like I had too much to say, too much to catch up on and I’d been gone too long. Everything looked unfamiliar. 

Today, I woke up and decided that I was tired of feeling like a stranger on my blog and that is why I’m here. For a long time I felt like I’d outgrown this space or I couldn’t do this anymore but that wasn’t it. I’ve written on this blog since before I could construct meaningful sentences, there’s so much here and this blog has been a constant in the process of growing up. It always will be. I think the unfamiliarity scared me. But I’m done with waking up and feeling like I can’t write here. 

A little break the ice thing since it’s been long: 

I’ve been painting and documenting my doodles and drawings on everydaywithart.tumblr.com
I’ve been travelling a lot more in the last two months than I have in the last two years. 
Being back on this blog feels really nice. It always was my happy space.
There’s a surprise coming up soooooooooooooon.
 I graduated. I’m done with college. 
 I cut my hair a while ago. 
I’m still fat. 
Kthenks.









Outfit details: Skirt: Splash, Shoes: American Swan

I’ve often been told, "Oh Sonaksha, you look so pretty, but...if you lost a little weight beta (child).” I’m so tired of the buts. I’m so tired of having to appear thin. So I decided to wear this - a crop top and this skirt that I love and everyone else hates because it ‘makes me look fat’. Well there’s nothing to be made, because I am. 

Now that it’s out of the way. 

I’ll see you soon.

I’ve missed you. 

Love,
Sonaksha 

7 comments:

  1. Taking a break is important when it comes to writing, and I'm glad you took that break and have come back :) Lovely to see you again, that skirt is lovely on you!

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  2. Do they have this skirt in black? It looks so cool, and you're wearing it so well. How do you make these faces, and photograph these poses? Sometimes I wanna shoot OOTD posts, too... I'm so glad you are back! Back again, Shady's back, tell a friend! :-)

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  3. Ooh, and those shoesssss. But the skirt. Always the skirt, forever - the skirt. I'm buying that necklace for Rs. 2800. It's okay, right? What to do now?

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  4. Oh! I have missed you too!! Not to mention, your words!
    You totally own this crop top & sheer skirt look! And the chic twist with the addition of those man shoes!! Welcome back in style!! <3

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  5. I love that skirt and I'm happy to see that you're back! It's good to know that you're ready to write on The Sonshu again! :)

    www.ohtobeamuse.com

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  6. wow! you look good :D and so good to finally see you back!
    and lucky you! you've graduated! TT_TT I've still got 2 more years to go!!!!!!!!!

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  7. Wondering where you disappeared too! I missed you! Love your outfit, please don't disappear again!

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